I had the bone density scan today and had to fill out a questionnaire. One of the questions asked, "have you had any broken bones in the last 5 years." I fell down my sister's stairs (old house, skinny steep stairs and too much wine) and broke my little toe. Low and behold...Medicare Rebate! So out of $145 I got around $90...praise that little broken pinky toe.
I scored a 0 (normal is between 3 and -1) so I'm one point into "normal". There's a graph that shows the "red danger section" I should reach by 55. I don't know whether that's a given or not the Radiographer didn't say anything. Why do they seal your scans/xrays up? I feel like a 2 year old breaking the seal ever so carefully so I won't get caught peaking. I'm not sure whether 0 is good/bad or normal for a 37 year old...does anyone know?
Next appointment is Tuesday to book in my surgery date...yay!
I saw my GP about the Superannuation letter today. He seemed very confused but read the APRA application (all 15 pages of it) before writing the letter (thankyou to the person who PM'd me a copy, it was such a help). I painstakingly watched him type one finger and the punctuation and spelling is still wrong but fingers crossed they will accept it. I have the cash but would rather use my super so I don't feel so guilty spending all our money on myself.
My dietitian also wanted a bone scan so I got a referral. That's at 11.40am today $145 (no Medicare because I don't have an existing aliment, broke a bone etc). Gee I wish I didn't say I take calcium because my Mother/Grandmother/Aunty have Osteoporoses. It would be nice to know if I have the beginning stages but it's just not the right time at the moment. Anyway, I better get it done before my appointment with the Surgeon on Tuesday just in case they are waiting around for the results.
Yesterday I saw Dr Shane Pascoe at Novacastrian Psychology. He was lovely. How nice is it to have someone look you directly in the eyes and ask you all about yourself. I wonder how they appear so interested? My mind would wander hearing about people's crap day in and day out...I'm not a good listener at all.
My appointment took about 1hr 30min and he'd like to see me again. I found it almost fun. It's not often that someone is interested in hearing what you have to say even if you are paying them $200. He asked lots of questions about family, body image, relationships. I was quite frank and found the whole experience a little confronting but he's had me thinking all afternoon. He kept asking over and over "what do you like about your body" and I kept saying, "nothing from the the neck down". I don't know what he was getting at, I said I like my face as it's my face and familiar, I said I like my hair...it's thick but I would like it to grow slower and be less thick but I was clutching at straws.
He kept wanting to pursue my poor body image but then I don't know whether his issue is that I had poor body image or that I thought my husband was part of a major deception calling me beautiful when he MUST see the obviously fat cow that I am and is lying through his teeth. That was weird. He said, "so you think that noone over a BMI of 40 can feel beautiful." I didn't say that at all, I said that I don't feel beautiful at a BMI of 41.7. I still think I'm thin sometimes and get a shock when I see a photo and realise I'm not. I told him that I like that I'm intelligent, I like that I can sing but he kept getting back the body. Why would anyone consider weight loss surgery if they liked their body? Seems kind of silly, doesn't it?
He see's a lot of anorexics/bulimics and was interested in my past laxative abuse, not to mention other less than desirable weight control methods, but I didn't want to get too far into everything in case he committed me. He said I was a good candidate for the surgery and would like to continue seeing me after the operation to work on my body image.
Anyway, that's out of the way. Next appointment back with the surgeon on the 27th April to make a surgery date.
I also went to HCF to claim and they will not pay unless you are referred my your GP and exhaust medicare rebates first. Damn.
I have too many things on, I never have things on. Having things on stresses me. As I'm at my ultimate fatness I have nothing to wear. I don't want to buy new fat clothes, I want to buy new thin clothes! 5 more weeks till I emerge out the other side. I found this great shop though, http://www.curvaceous.com.au it has some lovely plus size clothes.
I bought this to wear with jeans and brown boots, nice isn't it? (that's not me in the photo, I stole it off the website)
I love Diesel and had free tickets to see him at Lizottes Newcastle last night. I could only just squeeze my arse in the seats, they are soooo tiny. I suppose the theatre was built in the early 1900's so people were less 'ample'. I had to go in on an angle and then all the fat spilt out under the arm rests. The poor guy next to me got up and sat on the stairs. Diesel was fantastic but all I could think of was hurry up surgery! I never want to experience that again. Anyway, onwards and upwards. Here's some photos and a video for you to join me in drooling over. Oh, I should add, it's only the first two rows of the dress circle that has these tiny seats, the rest are tables with normal chairs. I highly recommend Lizottes, the food is outstanding and the talent is amazing!
My referring GP is Dr Ademola Ishola who practices at Charlestown Medical Centre. I was very nervous asking for a referral to Dr Costa but he said he has a couple of patients who have had success with the sleeve and looked generally excited for me! I totally recommend him if your Dr hasn't heard of the sleeve or doesn't support weight loss surgery as a tool for controlling weight gain.
I was lucky enough that there was a cancellation the day after I went to see Dr Costa for my initial appointment. At 10am the next morning I had some blood drawn for the Dr as he likes to test your cholesterol etc and then made my 10.30am appointment with Cathy Harbury. She asked everything I ate, exercise and weighed and measured me again. 115kg on the nose. Ghastly!
She asked me to get a bone scan before the surgery because of my family history of osteoporosis. I'll visit the GP next week but I hope this doesn't put a spanner in the works.
